Finally

Well, we are officially just a few days out from Andrew coming home and I couldn't be more happy, anxious, excited......and ....lazy. I seriously am in denial that he's flying in and I'm not cleaning a thing. Karen flys in on Saturday and I am thinking about taking her up to Pikes Peak on the train on Sunday. We fly out of Denver EARLY tuesday morning to begin our trip to Jamaica. I cannot believe the time is here. Finally, a vacation.

Now, I have lots of things to be down about lately but have forced myself to stay positive. Because I have in fact been quite the negative Nancy these past few months. Andrew is leaving the 7th of August (right after we return from vacation) for a few months. I decided that this is no longer a huge deal to me. It could be worse, ALWAYS could be worse.

Work is about to change quite a bit for me, I am about to move sections and I am grateful for this. It will be a slower section and I will be able to study for TSgt. Oh..maybe I should add that I am planning to reenlist. It's not official yet but that is the plan. I sat down last night and went through all my military pictures. 7 years of memories, I just dont want to give them up yet. My biggest fear for the longest time was that one day, I won't remember some of these days. Theres def more reasons why I am making this choice. But I'll save that for another post.

Anyways, this week is at a standstill! I am waiting waiting waiting for Andrew to come home! These last 3 months have been a blurr to me, where did they even go? I think I rush the time away too much.

In other news I got the COOLEST camera bag today from Jill E. it's soo damn cute. I knew I wanted something to carry it in while on Vaca, and this one is perfect. It doesnt even look like a camera bag, but more a purse. Cant wait to use it! I can't wait to take pictures of beautiful Jamaica. Ahh...so many things to look forward to. I hope these moments don't fly by...Well that's all I got for now. I must get back to Teen Mom :)

Things I have learned...

In 2011, I have learned some great lessons, both good and bad. At over half way through, I wanted to share some of those lessons.

*Every month that I stated "I'm so busy" the following month got busier, and I survived.
*It is possible to care for your toddler, even when you are on your death bed. I did it for 2 days.
*In moments of frustration, and desperation...I found out who my true friends are.
*When I thought that I couldn't give anymore...I did.
*I love my husband and daughter more than life itself. That is no exaggeration, it is the truth.
*The moments spent away from Andrew I know, will one day be nothing but a distant memory.

I am more motivated today, than I was yesterday. Which means...It can only get better from here. Andrew is gone pretty much until October. Instead of walloying in my self pity of how little I see my husband, how little Lyla sees her Daddy. I am just gonna take the cards I am dealt.
My only wish is one day these moments lost can somehow be made up to Lyla.

Where are you?

Not that anyone keeps up with my blog, or that I write it for anyone really to keep up with me. But...here's where I am. I am in a much better place then I was in May and mid June. Andrew came home for 2 days over the 4th of July weekend. For those that really know me, they know that the 4th of July is my most favorite Holiday. It's the only one that really makes sense to me. We are truly celebrating something. We didn't do much, in fact...we did what we normally do. A little this and a little of that, then took a nap and ate. It was nice. I felt like I fell in love with him all over again. He is such a good Daddy, since day one. I will never forget the day she was born we sat there in the mother and baby room just staring at her, and at each other. Clueless. But immediatley we just began doing a routine that made sense to us. The nurse walks in and says "wow, this must be your second" Ummmm no? she said "really?, I have never seen a husband and wife work so well together right off the bat." I attribute that to my amazing husband who even in his fear of having a child stood up and was willing to do whatever to make it eaiser on me.
While I am on this rant about my husband, let me also add in that even though I had 8 weeks off for maternity leave, he would still take the longest shift at night to feed Lyla, and would wake up at times even during my shifts to help me out, even though he was the one who had to work the next day. Always thinking of me before himself, that is just who he is. That is why I miss him so much, but...it's become a way of life now. I have had him home a grand total of 4 weeks since January. He has gone to so many schools this year and TDY's I have lost count. All I can say now is that I am over being away from him.
I envy the women who don't have to work....yes yes, I know, I have the option of not working. But do I? We don't have the luxury of living off Andrew's paycheck...maybe one day. But not anytime soon. Not even his soon to be E-7 pay would cut it, at least for me. I've had my own paycheck for 7 years now, that's a hard one to give up. But ya, I envy being able to have a clean home, get errands done, grocery shop when grocery shopping really needs being done...not when I have no choice because all thats left is applesauce and soup. But this is the best for my family right now. Even when it's hard at times, I know the pros def out weigh the cons in certain aspects.

Anyways, that is where I am right now. Counting down the days till I get my husband back for good. 14 days till he comes home. Then we are off to Jamaica, lots of other things approaching to be excited about. But can't let them out of the bag just yet :)