Harder than I ever imagined...

Blog, blogging, blogger? I don't even know what to say this is or what I am doing. I am writing--what one could call a long email persay? Yeah, that's what I'm gonna say it is. I started a blog about being pregnant about a 2 years ago. Well that quickly faded out. I was keeping it so Andrew could keep up with what he missed during the pregnancy which ended up being just a whole lot of B&*ching and moaning. So, did he really "miss" anything. nope probably not. So..why am I starting this "new" blog. Well-I don't know I think because it might make me feel better. Put my thoughts out there, maybe be able to go back and refer to it to tell Andrew all the fabulous moments of my life that he had the pleasure of missing. Yeah, thats the life of a military family. I'm writing a little for me, mostly for him, but most of all for us. Andrew is going to be gone for the next 3 months-no big deal right? Naw, it's really not. It came without warning as do most things in the military...he is turning around shortly once he comes home and leaving again. I figured I really needed to find something that was going to help me express my feelings. That way, maybe one day I can look back on them when I am in moments that I think are the worst EVER (which is pretty much all the time if you were to ask me) but it would give me the chance to see "Hey! you did it then, you can do it now". Yup! you are totally right Heather, you rock and you can do this.

People don't understand how "we do it" how Andrew and I can raise our child in this "environment" well, blow me :) that's what I say to those that just don't understand. Because the great part of that is, you dont have to understand. It's what we choose...and if you don't like it then I guess don't join the military~ Since Andrew joined SF I couldn't tell you the number of days he's been home as compared to the days he's been gone. But I can assure you-gone is pretty close to outweighing being home. So, this is my journal/diary/ramblings of my daily life. The life that I don't have time to even breath half the time but now I'm gonna add this. Whatever...lets see how this plays out..